Cyberbullies on YouTube

Dear YouTube subbies,

I want to take the time out to write you all a letter of apology. It is apparent that I haven't been creating videos or keeping my promises. I am truly sorry for the mere fact that most of you all support my channel and encourage me to keep making videos. Truth of the matter is that I let personal matters and schoolwork get in my way from having fun. I would stress out and just push away my daily interests such as YouTube. I never revealed my situation to anyone because I try to portray that I am strong and I despise being pitied. In the past---at age 8 up until the last semester of my sophomore year in high school, I suffered from depression. To many of you, it may solve your speculations or give you a better understanding of any thoughts you had about me. I don't want to go into details about why I suffered depression, but the majority of it was related to not being accepted for who I was since elementary, all the way through my first two years in high school. I'm proud to say that I no longer have low self-esteem and have gain self-confidence, along with wisdom. If I never tried hard enough to refrain adjusting who I was-just to be accepted, I'd hit rock bottom long time ago. Just thinking about me taking the bad road startles me. But since I met my two best friends, I gave up my old habits and changed for the better. I began to have a different perspective in life and embrace positivity because it has saved my life! The reason I mention this snippet of my personal experience is that it irritates me more than anything when I log into YouTube and some random person leaves me video comments that deal with any of the following:
1) Weight---Ex: You're Fat!/Fatty!/Hippo!/etc.....
2) Personal Appearance---Ex: You're so UGLY!/Only pretty people should be making vids!/etc
3) Voice---Ex: You sound like a man!/You sound have a deep voice so you must be fat!
4) Videos---Ex: You shouldn't be making videos/This is so boring/etc....

It's a shame that I'm constantly being bashed on who I am. And no, that is not the reason I've been inactive on YouTube, but this aspect surely takes the fun out of it for me. I have a very low tolerance when dealing with ignorant, pessimist, and discriminative individuals who seem themselves better than anyone. I have done nothing to anyone that would stir up drama. I hate the fact that these individuals look at what's not relevant in my videos. The sad part is, I have a strong demeanor and most people who think "fat" people let themselves go and cry themselves to sleep is entirely DELUSIONAL! I have no remorse whatsoever when I defend myself. And no, some people say it is mature to not even respond because I'll stoop to their level. But no, I have no intention of just letting some cyberbully go loose. I like them to realize that in the real world, you have to learn to respect people. Most of these bullies are either seeking attention or judging me based on how I look, rather than who I am. To be quite frank, I am FED UP! Especially after a long stressful day of work and school, I'm excited to communicate with my subbies and I see these distasteful and negative comments--like who wants to read all of that???o.O But really, it has no effect on me, but it just makes me realize how this world will never accomplish the concept of peace or see each other as prosperous human beings. I don't know why some of these people are so hesitant to write these comments. I guess they just want to be Captain Obvious. Anybody on the street can see that I'm overweight. My question is: why does it matter if I'm thin or not? My the content of my videos don't relate to my weight or size, so why constantly disrespect me? There's tons of people who dislike me for that reason and I won't apologize because it has no correlation to my videos. And to those who have no identity and want to comment/criticize me, you have no authority whatsoever to stating your redundant comments.

Seriously guys, I have so much to catch up on. To my faithful subscribers, I TRULY APPRECIATE you all because you guys give me the reason to not give up. I want to let you all know that I am a regular person---just like you and me! :) I could care less of how many subscribers I have--this is no contest! I am freaked out though, I never thought I even reach 200 subbies. But since I took a leave from the internet, there are so many of you all that I don't know. I want to get to know you guys on a personal level if you're up for it. This is a New Year, and this means there will be drastic changes. I don't mean to be getting off topic, but I will be doing a video discussing this situation. Best of luck to you guys and Happy New Year!!!!!!! :D